Happy birthday, Samantha.
Three-nine and counting down to the big four-O--then the down side of life. Here I am, back to 180 pounds. I don’t remember much of the past few months, except that I’ve been on a feeding frenzy, a whirl of food going by and my grabbing what I could before I die--
Three months to get the weight off, six months to put it back.
Now I lay on the sofa, patting my belly--what else there is to eat, or is that what I really want? What can I do to fill this void, which is obviously not in my stomach anymore?
Or was it ever really in my belly?
As I reread these journal entries--obsessively, of course--I realize I have mentioned Nicole, the reason for this doomed diet in the first place, only sporadically.
As I obsess about weight, sex, and food, Nicole has run away with her sleazy boyfriend and joined a cult.
How could I have failed her so miserably?
Source: “The Big Diet,” by Jennifer Semple Siegel, Are You EVER Going to Be Thin? (and other stories), 2004.
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© Jennifer Semple Siegel, 2004. This work may not be reprinted or reposted without permission from the author.