Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.Forgive others their transgressions, forgive your own transgressions against yourself.--Paul Boese
Best yet, don't beat yourself up over the past. Just learn from it.
Even if you are not religious, try on this 1969 Gestalt Prayer:
I am I and you are you.Have a wonderful Easter, my cyber ones.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I,
and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.
If not, it can't be helped.--Fritz Perls (1893-1970)