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The BIG Diet (Or What Happens When You Deprive Yourself of Luscious Delights)--Week #12

First time on “The BIG Diet”? Start here . Today, Brian and I meet at the hospital dining hall for our lunch date. I wear my new dress, a size 14! A gorgeous garment, a flowing aqua mid-calf dress, 100% cotton; it hides all my flaws. I bring a vanilla shake and a bottle of imitation rum extract. I am worried about what Brian will be eating, but, bless him, he brings a shake too. “Sammy, I lost my weight on this diet,” he says, touching my hand. “So I’d never eat in front of you. Especially now, when you’re so close.” He buys me a diet cream soda and a diet chocolate for himself. “I’d die for chocolate.” He stirs his chocolate shake into his soda. “For 12 weeks, I drank nothing but chocolate in chocolate. I didn’t mind at all.” “I miss food,” I say. “I want real food, lots of it. Once I’m off this diet, I’m never going to stop eating. I’m going to eat around the clock until I drop dead from overeating.” “You’ll be okay.” But I’m not really in control. I want food, and I want to make lo

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